it’s been a long long week and finally it’s a brand new week again. well, last week wasn’t like any other week. it was the start of another phase of my life where i try to juggle work and family together and itchy butt me decided to include fitness goals too. yesterday after my metcon sesh, my body finally surrendered and pulled out the white flag. but i must say, i felt really accomplished πŸ™‚

everyday has been babysitting cody + protecting my family, besides that i try to make appointments for work here and there and visiting grandpa was most memorable this week; he held my hand really tight and he responded with little signs when i spoke to him. he even looked at me when the nurse was changing his tubes and i was peeping at the corner of the curtains. my grandpa’s a fighter and the doctor is amazed how he managed to pull through. i’m so proud of him and i hope he hurry gain conscious so i can tell him my jokes and tell him how handsome he is like old times…

another great achievement, i started my first conditioning class 2 weeks ago and managed to conquer another sesh of extreme conditioning. it was sure extreme for my 60-year-old body… but i felt so good and determined to conquer even more. y0u know this nervousness i always get before a fitness training, because i know what to expect. because i am anticipating that i will reach the peak point where i will start thinking “i feel like dying and why the hell am i here…..” and hence it gets me really nervous and butterflies all in my tummy. but there is so much more inside me that pushes me to go for it despite all that. i don’t know what is it yet, but one day i will know. i always manage to push myself to go for it despite knowing i feel like death half way through the sesh.

and one more exciting achievement i always wanted to do in my life – MMA!!!

i have been watching UFC and all the ONE championship fights. well, i never ever thought i would ever try this sport out. i’m a ball team player, don’t think i am a combat sports player but i decided to give it a try. MMA class last friday was wrestling and daymnnnn at the beginning i was so angry when we had to do plank jumps because of my stupid long nails, they almost pierce into my palms and i was about to throw a girl-tantrum. however as we progressed further in the class, learnt how to break fall (which i never learnt in rugby cos i always throw my body loosely on the field without thinking) and it was quite interesting. the best part was the last part when we learn how to take down our partners. i was the only female in the class, partnering W, well he did give me easy way down and the coach realized he was just giving it to me easy (and i thought i genuinely took him down myself -.-) and on my part i was resisting his attack pretty well with my thunderous thighs. so when he put up a stronger defence, i was super satisfied when i managed to take him down with my own strength and whatever technique i learnt. *tick off my life list* so accomplished!

W did well too. he swing me down and when i was being carried off, i loved it when my hair was swinging in the air. that’s a kiddo moment when i felt i was spinning in one of the playground toys. next morning, woke up with crazy body aches and soreness of my ribs. lovin’ the soreness because i know i’m bringing my body to the next level.

i have new personal fitness goals. not gonna say exactly what but i’m definitely working on it πŸ™‚

life has been taking a toil on me for 8 years. however, i have been avoiding it or rather, trying to escape and ignore. now that i am 24, i find it coming back again. there is no way i can escape from it and i should really face it like an adult now. i must say, it is really really very very taxing and hard on me. i don’t know how to cope and handle, i don’t know how i should react but i must say i am very blessed with having very nice people around me who gives me great support and encouragement. i don’t think i can remain this strong or even be stronger than who i was without such great people around me. my loved ones, friends and support from colleagues. i am more than thankful.

it is because of such support, that can help anyone in times of hardship to go further and hang in there a little longer.



26.4.14 / catch-up ketchup

hello! haven’t been updating this space regularly (i’m sorry!!!) due to being so so busy at work and recently, i managed to slow my life down by catching a sick bug. have been having high fever for the past 3 nights… i guess as we grow older, we take longer to recover aye? damn. i refuse to acknowledge that i’m growing old but yea it’s definitely taking some time for me to be pink in health. my brain is probably half-fried but i never once took my temperature. it’s better not to know. a fever is still a fever despite how high the temperature is. denial mode: as stubborn as a bull.

so how’s life? it has been pretty interesting for me. for once this year, i finally questioned about things and when i start, the questions run long and probably about everything too. if nobody can convince me or give me a satisfying answer, that’s when doubt comes in and people start seeking for 2nd opinion. followed by comparing, creating more unhealthy assumptions and doubts, mistrust, ++ assumptions… so on and so forth. so i kinda know what the outcome will be without even being there. i decided to take a step at a time and not let assumptions kill. i gotta experience it myself to know if it is to kill me or make me πŸ™‚ and also through experience will i learn who to trust and who to just smile and let it pass.

i guess i had a pretty fruitful month and although time flies, photos keeps memories forever πŸ™‚ before i flood photos & details about my good april, i wanna share one thing with everyone.

one thing i learnt which i hold close to me:

make small goals everyday, it may be small steps but it will bring you forward.

goals for next week (i’m def looking forward to it!!!!)

#1. workout!!!!!

#2. back to work!

#3. stay pink in health (recover! health is wealth… and happiness)

#4. meet people who inspire/motivate me in the right light




2.3.13 / Ups & down, how quickly life can turn around


time flies. it’s already March. many things have changed, happened and it cannot be reversed. i wouldn’t say it has been easy 3 months that went by.. infact it has been one of the most challenging and mentally draining journey for me. faced exhaustion most of the times, down many other times, but that’s not it – i am even more thankful for the many more good things that happened. the most best thing that has happened so far are the people around me that has been giving me endless support. i don’t know where they came from or their sudden appearance, but God never fail to put little angels around me whenever i feel discouraged. whenever i feel down, tired or discouraged, i will always think of the little angels around me who spur me on and give me a pat on my back.. i can only be grateful and appreciative. i am very blessed and lucky πŸ™‚Β 

nothing will actually beautiful without a story behind it. if it is beautiful, it can be but just an outer shell and hollow on the inside. i was a hollow shell, can’t say about the beautiful part but the hollow side i’m sure of. i don’t want that anymore. i want to tell a beautiful story one day and i can.

this is my new family of 2014, Life is Great.

got up really early on a Sunday morning for a very good reason – which is to give back to people. went for my first charity drive with them and i feel great! πŸ™‚ returning home with a very very very bad body ache (but fruitful one). i worry about running tomorrow morning at MacRitchie :/

we had at least 205 goodie bags filled with salt, milo, tin of biscuits and many other necessities… and 5kg of rice for each family we were gonna distribute to. i went to office in the morning earlier to help and it was a good workout… and what’s best, we are doing it to help others πŸ™‚ feels alot more satisfying than a normal gym session. did have just one weird encounter at the hawker while we were resting with our 100 plus.. but besides that, everyone was very cooperative and it was a good experience. the houses were pretty decent, maybe it was the block i was assigned to. they were clean and they were nice people. hope to do more of such works next time(!!)

the day ended with great company and a good jar of cream cheese cake. damn, so good. wished everyday was Sunday!

i wanna thank everyone who have been there for me, lending me a listening ear, taking me out to eat and buying me happy meals just to cheer me up πŸ™‚ i’m very very very thankful for such people in my life and i will work hard so that i can tell a better story next time.

new week, new goal, new story to tell πŸ™‚

have a great start to your week, errrbody! much love x